Sunday, December 9, 2012
Retreat to Refuel
In the last ten years I've been involved in selling my paintings; I market to shops and sell directly online and at shows. I don't see myself as a very material person, so I feel a little strange about putting more"stuff" out into the universe. But of course, I'm delighted when people buy my work because they think it will bring pleasure to someone; I try not to make my friends feel like they have to support me in this venture.
While I attempt to limit my commitments as I go into this busiest season, things come up that add to my "to do" list. I've been known to get grumpy.
In the past few weeks I've balanced myself by attending two retreats at Holy Cross Monastery. Thanksgiving weekend I attended one by Carolyn Bluemle, using yoga to express gratitude and practice presence. And then this last week I was fortunate to go to another one with John Philip Newell. This retreat also focused on presence; I bought a CD of chant and prayers that he developed with Suzanne Butler and some wonderful musicians. I play it in my car and in my studio. I find myself singing it throughout the day. And I find both Carolyn and John Philip in my head periodically - my breathing slows down, my mind clears and settles, and I remember the things that I believe to be most important in my days.
Today I did my last craft show for the year. I'm ready to prepare for Christmas. I'd like to do a little baking, to write some cards, to buy or make a few simple thoughtful gifts, and to reflect with gratitude on this period of waiting, making ready.
Tell me about your preparations. Are you able to experience joy in this period of shortened days, holiday anticipation? I hope so!